Chrissy Teigencelebrated her 35th birthday on Monday by sharing a bittersweet milestone with fans and followers on Instagram.

She took her first shower in two months since the tragic loss of her son Jack.

I’ve been taking baths because I couldn’t stand to be in the shower.

Chrissy Teigen

I couldn’t, like, physically stand in the shower."

She went on to add, “I feel really, really good.

I feel very clear and very good” (viaToday).

Chrissy Teigen and family

And while it’s obvious her loss is still painfully raw, Teigen is healing.

I cannot wait."

Quickly adding, “I realised that just left you supremely hanging.

Further reflecting, “Not a lot of people have had the wherewithal and the courage to do that.